“What Am I Doing In Here” is a practice that connects us with the Buddha’s first talk, which came to be known as “Turning The Dharma Wheel,” The Wheel of Law, which means working with the Four Noble Truths or learning to effectively experience our Body, Speech and Mind in the context of the four qualities. The flow of universal consciousness originates from an unknown source that governs our existence. Each one of us has the ability to guide consciousness as it flows through us.
The quality of our life is enhanced by more than just following a regular meditation practice. We have the skills, training and wisdom to step it up. This includes making adjustments to our moment to moment experience as we move through a day. For example, when unskilful emotions arise during daily activities, we can redirect our focus, using simple internal statements, like “no business of mind”.
“What Am I Doing In Here” can be used like a mantra; to refocus, to remind us of our commitment to self monitor, to not get hijacked by relentless self criticism or other reactive thought patterns. This practice of paying attention to what is, in every moment, regardless of which position our body is in, supports our quality of life, creative expression and a-good-night’s sleep. In due time we may become a lighthouse for others, able to offer compassion, lovingkindness, joy, and equanimity; qualities so much needed in these challenging times.
But first and foremost, it is a practice of good house keeping, acknowledging what is needed, accessing the right tools, seeking supportive community and not dropping the ball, and if you do, immediately picking it back up.”
How relevant to how I’ve been feeling! I read just this week that there’s no returning to a ‘normal’ we thought we had/were in before the Pandemic. I’ve HAVE felt the relentless self-criticism, sadness and unworthiness. I’ve not gotten less kind, nor less aware of the importance of it, but just more stymied in questioning whether I am worthy of kindness. Thus, it’s kind of feeling like I’m thinking too much of Self, therefore deepening those feelings of self-criticism! Sangha Live has helped me to feel ‘in community’ in a way I perhaps haven’t for many years, and I feel intense gratitude for that, and appreciation for all that good
Litsi, thank you for this beautiful reflection. We are also grateful to have you in our community 🙂